First Meeting

I went to my first meeting tonight. There is a wide variety of people in our group. Some who are on the second 20 weeks, some who, like me, are starting for the first time. Some who gained the weight back and are doing it again. 

I think the biggest lesson tonight was the amount of guilt that comes with food. The people around us mean well, but with well meaning comments and suggestions can help to cause failure. For me, some foods are like alcohol. I am a believer in Christ who struggles with food addiction. An alcoholic can't take another drink. I am surrounded with the foods I enjoy, but I cannot eat them. They mean poor health. Limited capacity. Possibly death from fatty liver disease or kidney failure. 

So what I guess I am saying is don't feel bad about eating in front of me or "wish" I could take a bite. I am choosing health, and I am quite satisfied by that. I don't need to celebrate occasions with food. I celebrate with relationships. Don't feel bad if I can't taste what you made. A piece of any food will stop me from attaining the health I so desperately seek. Fasting works on the process of ketosis which will stop if I eat food. 

I am ready. I am excited to get started. Fasting begins next Wednesday night. Countdown begins. Praise God.