Elusive

Weight loss is still elusive. I am thrilled with how I look and feel so I am not so concerned but it is still a goal I have set that I cannot seem to reach. 10 pounds seems as far away as 70 pounds seemed last June. 

And the weight stays the same...

Praising God. Through the battle with my thyroid I have not gained weight. It could have been bad. It has been a little frustrating. But I praise God. 

Prayer please...

Stress is high... Eating is moderately out of control and my back is hurting bad enough that I am having trouble bending over... No gym today. Sigh...

Work out

The exercise is going well. Thank you for your prayers. I love my time in the gym in the early mornings. I am feeling well. My mind is clear. I am thankful that I can exercise, thankful for energy. Thankful for health. Soon I hope to have my thyroid under control and really start feeling well...

Weight....

Fighting with Thyroid issues still. I have gained 3 pounds on 800 calories a day an 60 minutes of exercise a day. Discouraged... But just a little...

Goals.

I have always been a goal driven person. Competive only with myself. Exercise feeds that in a way. I can set small and large goals and accomplish them. So far, I know that I want to be able to run a 5k. I want to be able to rock climb, to kayak successfully, to scuba dive. 

I have bigger, more insane wishes. Maybe dreams. To run a marathon, compete in an ironman, bodybuild, mountain bike on a trail in the mountains, to mountain climb. 

I also know that I am driven to extremes. I don't want to let my new obsession for fitness to become an idol, like food was...

Food... Sigh...

Food is hard to deal with. We need it for nourishment. For sustenance. God gave it to us for celebration. I overdo the celebration. I use it for reward. I use it for comfort. I give it a place in my life that only God should fill. 

I started eating again Thursday. I am really struggling. I am keeping to my 3 hour schedule and I do great during the day. In the evening, all of the sudden, it becomes okay in my head to eat "just a little" of this or that. Please pray that God gives me the wisdom and his power to defeat this.