I am still sick, but I can feel myself healing, so that is good.
We looked a lot at the roles we have played in our childhood. Some played "the hero" taking care of a dysfunctional parent or siblings. Some played "the star" either academically or through a talent or sports. Some were "the scapegoat". Either taking that role upon themselves to provide distraction for painful family situations, or because the family chose them to blame or pick on. Some were "the responsible one" trying to take control of uncontrollable situations. I have to meditate a little more on what role I played in my childhood. What role that has had on my eating problems.
One of the reasons that this all matters is that many of us are still living out those roles and they don't work for us any more. They don't provide comfort or protection. They work against us.
I have really psychoanalyzed this pretty thoroughly, but what I need to do is to rethink it in light of God's Word. I have spend literally hundreds of hours in all different kinds of counseling. Some good, some bad. I know all of the reasons that psychology uses to explain my behavior. I really need to follow it further biblically. Then I will divulge.
God is my all in all.
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