Revelation

I received a revelation today. That revelation caused a paradigm shift that I pray lasts forever. As I was thinking on the food I had seen on a commercial I had the thought, "I am not that person anymore". I am not the person who was ruled by food. I worshipped food. Food was the reason for rising in the morning and making it through hard situations that could be dealt with and disolved in healthy ways.

I have always longed to be a thin, healthy person who could jog, hike, scuba dive, and run marathons. I have longed in my heart to be able to be a triathlete. That was a point of insanity because my habit of indulging on fat soaked, sugar laden, salted food that was lacking any real nutrient value.

When I was choosing to stop at Jack in the Box on the way to work or home, I was choosing food that would take me in the opposite direction to the life I longed for. When I chose butter soaked toast and breads, brown sugar covered oatmeal, bags of chips, half gallons of ice cream, I was choosing the exact opposite of who I longed to be. This caused a disconnect in who I was and who I wanted to see myself as.

Another effect of the foods I was choosing were the ups and downs from carbs and sugar which also changed the way my brain released the serotonin which added to the deficiency I already deal with. The high fat foods I craved caused the need to slow down. Laziness. In effect I was choosing dis-ease over health, even though I longed for health.

So now when I see the foods I used to overeat and crave, I repeat, "I am not that person anymore". This gives me new perspective and new resolution to continue this fast. Praise God!